Sergio Gaut vel Hartman
The house wasn't bad. Perhaps it had
more rooms than necessary and a gloomy character that could be corrected with
flowers and plants and some children running through the hallways and the
patio. I wondered if I would have the opportunity to find something better and
also how many other cloying real estate agents they would have to endure before
finding the ideal house, the dream place.
"What
do you think?" said the salesman, rubbing his hands. He had fashioned a
smile so false that it threatened to perpetuate itself on his face, condemning
him to rigor mortis in life. "You won't find anything better," he
insisted after reading my thoughts. Salesman's tricks, I suspected; I'm too
childish in such matters. I was going to retort, I swear, but at that moment
the guy's cell phone rang, and after muttering an apology, he withdrew to the
adjoining room to answer the call.
I was left
alone and dedicated myself to observing the high, white ceilings. Plaster
moldings clearly marked the separation from the ugly, hastily painted walls. I
thought it was an original, extravagant house, perhaps concocted by a snobbish
architect. I took a few steps towards the next room, moving away from the
salesman. The place seemed illogical in a way, and it reminded me of a story I
had read some time ago. For a moment I thought I could get trapped in that
singular geography, lost in spaces I was completely unfamiliar with, but I
immediately dismissed those silly arguments. The salesman was still talking,
perhaps arguing or receiving instructions to close the deal, so I refocused my
attention on the house. There were too many rooms, I repeated to myself; the
walls oozed dampness, the floors were uneven, and ventilation was scarce. These
reasons led me to decide that I had enough to end the whole matter right there.
I approached a door and opened it. It led to an empty room. I retraced my steps
and opened another door. This smaller room was populated by moth-eaten,
decrepit, foul-smelling furniture; I felt nauseous. Just about to emerge into a
patio where a mass of golden light had accumulated, I noticed a door disguised
behind a tattered, dirty blue curtain. I hesitated between going out to the
patio, clearly the blind end of the line, since an unlimited number of rooms
couldn't exist, or concentrating my attention on that door. The second idea
won.
I fumbled
for the doorknob behind the curtain and felt the coldness of the bronze; as I
imagined, it wasn't locked; none of the house's doors were, after all. I opened
it and faced the first surprise.
The natural
assumption, I don't know why, had been to think that the room was empty and
that the light from the patio was obliquely filtering through a window,
illuminating dust particles and delineating a trapezoid of clarity on the dark
floor. It wasn't like that.
The room had
no windows. The stark white of several fluorescent tubes shone on the objects,
denying them the right to shadow. But these details were nowhere near as
extraordinary as the rest. Sitting in a high-backed chair, with his elbows
resting on a wooden table and his fists under his chin, was a man of
indefinable age, with graying hair and a network of wrinkles on his face that
seemed to mimic the labyrinth of the house. He looked towards the door, as if
he had been waiting for me, but upon seeing me, he didn't even blink.
"Good
afternoon," I said. "I didn't know anyone was here."
"Evening.
I'm Juan Salvo," he said, slurring his words. I mentioned my name and he
shrugged. I remained rooted to the floor for a few seconds, paying attention to
the noises, barely rustles, coming from an adjoining room that communicated
with ours through a doorless opening.
"Is
there anyone else?" I said, pointing to the opening.
"Yes,"
Salvo said, "Guevara; he's preparing mate. We're waiting for Rosa to
start." He seemed to observe me more closely for a second, but immediately
lost interest. "We weren't expecting you. Were you supposed to come? Who
sent you?" The words denoted suspicion and distrust, but the tired tone
belied any nuance in that direction.
I didn't
know what to answer, so I put myself on the defensive, with my guard up.
"Who are you people?" I asked, always attentive to what this Guevara
was doing in the neighboring room; apparently, he was in no hurry. Two or three
times I heard clinking, as if a teaspoon was hitting a glass.
"I
already told you: Rosa, who will arrive any moment, Guevara and I, Salvo. Sit
down, don't stand there. Are you sure no one sent you? Maybe Guevara
knows."
I spotted a
chair identical to Juan's and dragged it unceremoniously to place it next to
the table. I sat to one side, with my back to the wall facing the patio and
facing the archway through which, at any moment, Guevara would appear.
"You
mention the names of these people," I said, "and your own, but they
mean nothing to me. Should I know them?"
"Yours
means nothing to me either," Salvo said. "What does it matter? If I
told you that Guevara and Rosa are fighters, people who have imagined a better
world and are trying to force things to make it happen, would anything
change?"
I looked at
Salvo disoriented, searching my memory for a logical reason to fit the nonsense
the man suggested. "Wait a moment," I stammered. "If what you
say were true, you'd be talking about people who died years ago. That Guevara
died in Bolivia, in the mountains, a long time ago. And I don't even dare to
think that the Rosa you mention is the revolutionary, the German woman from the
early 20th century who fought..."
"She's
Polish, not German," Salvo said.
"She
isn't, she was. She's dead," I insisted. "Rosa Luxemburg." I
savored the name, an epic name, like Dolores Ibarruri, like other quixotic
ladies of history. The guy was crazy.
"Alive,
dead," Salvo said, shaking his head. "What do you know?"
"You
don't expect me to believe he's a ghost." I tried to laugh, but my lips
twisted abnormally and formed a sneering grimace.
"For
now, my friend," Salvo said, "I expect nothing." Salvo seemed at
that moment overwhelmed by a weariness greater than any man could bear, as if a
long and useless struggle had consumed him. I was going to retort; I am a
rational person and that kind of superstition disturbs me beyond words, but
things didn't turn out as I expected. A crash forced me to turn my head. The
windowless wall opened as if it were the diaphragm of a camera. Click, clack.
The patio was never seen, and in any case, what I could perceive was, like a
flash, a dark volume crossing the iris with a firm step, as if the wall simply
didn't exist.
When I could
turn my whole body, I discovered next to me a young woman, about twenty-five
years old, perhaps less; she was petite, with very white skin, and moved
nervously, as if she lacked time to do everything she had planned.
"Hello,
Rosa," Salvo said, as expressionless as ever.
"Hello,
Rosa," I repeated; I could afford to be polite. I was fascinated by the
idea that this woman was the mythical Rosa Luxemburg, the founder of
Spartacism. But Rosa had been assassinated in 1919, how was that possible...?
The girl
looked at me, surprised and irritated. Apparently, she didn't like an intruder
occupying a place around the table, much less being treated with familiarity,
as if I had known her before. She put her arms akimbo, in a pose so affected
that it seemed like a movie heroine, and pointed at me by moving her chin.
"Where
did this one come from, who is he?" she said with a strong German accent,
which confirmed, in a way, what Salvo had stated.
"He
must be someone visiting the house to buy it," Guevara said, coming out of
the other room with a thermos under his arm and a leather-covered gourd in his
left hand. He didn't look at me; perhaps he was looking beyond the wall, the
patio, or beyond the house, a landscape invisible to me. Apparently, these
people knew and could do things that were forbidden to me. Guevara sat down and
gestured to Rosa to drop that austere gesture, similar to that used by a
fanatic when with someone who does not profess their faith. Then he placed the
gourd in a tiny wicker basket and poured the water in a single, precise stream,
showing that his pulse was trained; he took three long sips without moving the
container and refilled it, pushing the gourd towards Salvo.
"Is he
useful to us?" Rosa said. Although her features had softened a little, the
girl's hostility could have been caught in the air with a slap. I felt the urge
to jump up and leave without saying goodbye, but the mystery was too precious,
like a gem.
"Do you
have a mission?" I said without thinking, a pure intuition like pure
water; an absurd and unfounded intuition. But all three raised their heads and
fixed their eyes on me. Even Salvo seemed to lose the skin of apathy that
enveloped him, and Guevara put down the thermos, and Rosa leaned her small body
forward, almost touching me.
"What
do you know about all this?" Guevara said. "Who told you about
us?"
"We all
have a war to fight," I said, blindly, hoping that path would lead
somewhere. "I'm looking for mine."
They all
sighed with relief; it was almost comical. Salvo shook his head and I thought
he smiled. Rosa put her hand on my arm and squeezed, as if wishing to erase all
previous distrust with that gesture.
"I
highly doubt this is yours," Guevara said. He poured water into the gourd
again and offered it to me. Although I don't usually drink mate, I accepted. I
sensed that if I yielded to these people's ways, my chances of understanding
what was happening would increase.
"To
know if we are in the same war," I said, at random, "we would first
have to define who the enemy is."
Contrary to
what I expected, none of them answered me. Perhaps my question had been too
direct, and that put me under suspicion again. Was I spying on them? I knew I
wasn't. Rosa released my arm; only then did I notice that she had been
squeezing so hard that her nails had pierced the fabric of my shirt.
Guevara
prepared himself as if he were about to lecture a group of anxious and ignorant
young people.
"Do you
know what happens?" he finally said, though without looking at me, after
taking two long sips. "The enemy... it doesn't matter much who the enemy
is. We can put our heads together and believe that the enemy is one, and in a
way it is, but the struggle must take place at every point, at every
intersection, do you understand? Then it matters less. You fight your own war
and each of us will do something similar. We have met by chance; perhaps we
don't even belong to the same time, we haven't been able to find out yet. In
reality, we just get together to drink mate." He laughed strangely.
"It
doesn't escape you that I don't understand what you're talking about," I
said.
"No, it
doesn't escape me," Guevara said. "It was a possibility. Do you know
who I am?"
"Should
I know? Are you someone... important? If you were the same Guevara... it would
be impossible." I didn't want to say that that Guevara was dead; it seemed
rude to me.
Guevara
smiled. Then he patted his thigh.
"Juan
knows much more about this than Rosa and I because he exists on another plane,
independent, closer to central knowledge," he said. "He says that in
some lines I am someone important, perhaps decisive, or at least influential.
But lines are just that, lines. You walk down a hallway, open a door, and enter
a room. Maybe I'm there, maybe not. Maybe I triumphed or was assassinated or
wasn't born, do you understand?"
"No.
Why doesn't he explain it to me?" I said, pointing to Salvo. "If you
yourself admit that he knows much more than you."
"We're
wasting time," Rosa said. She had regained her previous expression, though
intensified by an urgency that came from fear, as if the whole scene risked
bursting like a soap bubble.
"Time
is not lost," Salvo said, "we are the ones who get lost in
time." I was getting tired of those empty, deliberately enigmatic phrases,
designed to impress me. I began to think that, beyond the trick of Rosa and the
wall, of the mentions of war or whatever they intended to do, a terrorist act,
an ambush, an assassination, these people were concealing a concrete operation:
occupying the house to use it as a base for their activities, or something
similar. The memory of the Process times suddenly came to me and I was afraid.
"Do you
have authorization from the owner or the real estate agency to be in this
place, or are you common intruders?" My phrase sounded insipid, and they,
all three, even before I finished the paragraph, began to laugh.
"If you
only knew how defeated your words sound," Guevara said when he could
compose himself. "This is an inflection point, an anomaly. Do you think
something as trivial as squatting in a house can prevail over the phenomenon
that brings us together, here, now, all four of us?"
"You
spoke of a war," I said, trying to regain my footing.
"You
spoke," Salvo said. "For us, war, any war, took a back seat a long
time ago. What kind of war do you imagine? One with soldiers, planes, tanks,
missiles? I'm sorry to disappoint you; we don't have those kinds of wars in
existence." Juan's words were accompanied by such a high degree of
bitterness that for a moment I thought he was going to explode, splashing me,
soaking me in blue, lethal poison.
"Is any
of you going to tell me clearly why you are in this place?" I half-rose in
my chair; I was determined to press them and define, even at the cost of
leaving some shreds in the attempt.
"I
already told you," Guevara insisted, "we just got together to drink
mate." Rosa was even more eloquent: she drew her finger and pointed it at
me, accusingly, although I suppose she didn't even know what she was accusing
me of. She said two or three words in German, I suppose; they sounded like an
insult.
"Rosa,
please," Juan Salvo said wearily, "let's leave those silly
things."
"If you
explain the trick of the wall," I said, not paying attention to the girl
who kept gesticulating, despite Salvo's reprimand, perhaps stuck for lack of
words in our language, "I'll leave and let you be. I found you by chance
and I'm not interested. I'd rather be in the library, reading a good book. Do
you realize? Besides, the salesman must be looking for me."
Salvo looked
at Guevara, as if asking for help, but he made an eloquent gesture, downplaying
its importance.
"The
salesman is dangerous, he is the enemy, since you wanted to know," Guevara
said.
Then Salvo
stood up and, placing his fists on the table, spoke like a political leader
negotiating support for his worst adversary.
"It's
time, sir, the greatest impostor, a fiction. Get out of here, while you can,
before you get caught in the web of facts. Do you think I was always this pale
shadow? I am a man of action and I await my opportunity. But you disturb me,
you hinder me."
"Who
are you?" I repeated for the umpteenth time, almost furious. I also had my
fists clenched, and despite always having been a peaceful person, I felt like
running them over, forcing them to explain the whole story to me.
"We
already told you," Guevara said; he seemed to be very patient, a guy
accustomed to complicated ventures.
"Names
are not enough for me; I don't know who you are by knowing your names, which,
by the way, could be mere pseudonyms. It's very common lately."
Rosa seemed,
for the first time, at peace with herself, but she refrained from speaking.
"Let's
suppose for a moment," Salvo said, "that we are independent avatars
who met, who by pure chance found the common factor that allows them to
coincide in a fictional space, is that enough for you?"
"Avatars?
They talk as if this were a game. No, it's not enough for me," I said, and
I was sincere; I was as much in the dark as at the beginning. Perhaps I am a
limited person to understand the abstract or the fantastic, but I couldn't
connect these three people; perhaps I wouldn't have been able to even knowing
their motives and passions. "Okay, tell me your stories, one of the three
stories, at least."
"No,"
Guevara said, breaking a silence of several minutes, "we don't have time
left." He tried to pour water into the gourd and discovered that the
thermos was empty. Without hesitation and without looking back, he headed
towards the other room. As I watched him disappear, it occurred to me that he
had the answer and was hiding it, or that he was provoking me. With a jump, I
crossed the space that separated us without Rosa or Juan trying to stop me. I
reached the archway and received a devastating impact: Guevara was walking
towards a mountain of oxidized bushes, under an ashen, weak sun; beyond, by a
stream, a kind of camp was visible where some men and women surrounded a
bonfire. I called out to him, but he didn't even turn around, as if he were
traversing a space without connection. I realized that I had lost a third of
reality, perhaps forever, or perhaps it wasn't real at all, it never had been,
how to know? I turned abruptly, prepared to discover that the archway leading
to the house I had intended to buy had disappeared, but no: the archway was
still in the same place; fortunately, I wasn't lost in an alternative universe,
with no possibility of return. I hesitated for a second. I would ruin
everything if I didn't make the right move, but I also couldn't continue living
with the doubt on my shoulders.
However,
when I looked back into the room, Rosa and Salvo had disappeared. The room was
empty, like so many others in the house. There were no traces of the table and
chairs, and a huge window overlooked a patio where the last vestiges of a
coppery light wrinkled like the skin of a rotting fruit. The door opened and I
heard the voice of the real estate agent.
"Sir?"
he said hesitantly. "Are you here?"
It wasn't
possible, nothing was possible. I went outside and looked towards the camp.
Guevara had already gained a good hundred meters on me. But reality is tied to
logical laws, I told myself; people can't just appear and disappear like that.
"Yes,
I'm here," I said, entering the room resolutely. The salesman sighed with
relief. "I was just looking around," I added.
"This
leads to the park," he said, pointing to the archway through which Guevara
had left. I adjusted the idea in my head. Calling a mountain of bushes with its
own stream a park seemed absurd to me, but it was the real estate agent's
logic, not mine or the others'.
"Beautiful
park," I said for lack of anything better. I moved to get past the
salesman, but he grabbed my arm.
"Did
you see something you shouldn't have?" The guy's expression had changed
drastically. The plastic smile gone, he looked at me harshly, brazenly, as
police often look at a suspect. The pressure on my arm intensified; I thought
of Rosa and how everyone seemed interested in keeping me restrained, not just
in that house and at that moment.
"Are
you going to let me go? What do you think you're doing?"
"No,"
the guy said, stubborn; now it was hard for me to think of him as a simple real
estate agent; he was something else, no doubt, as Guevara had said; the
salesman is dangerous, he said, he is the enemy. The salesman confirmed it
immediately, with four enigmatic and conclusive words: "Who is the
woman?"
"What
woman? I didn't see any woman."
"Don't
be an idiot." He increased the pressure on my arm even more and with a
dizzying movement pulled out a weapon and pressed it against my forehead.
"What
are you doing?"
"I'm
not playing; neither are they. Didn't they tell you this is a war?"
I laughed as
naturally as possible. "You're crazy! I came to buy the house."
"That
was the original idea, but things changed since you met those three." The
forcefulness of the statement shattered my scheme. He knew everything, it
wasn't a trick; he could read minds with absolute efficiency. I decided to make
a drastic change, a desperate move.
"Oh,
those people, I was just going to ask you. Is the house occupied? How do I get
them out of here? If I buy it, will I get involved in legal issues?"
The guy let
go of me and stepped back, though without ceasing to point the weapon at me.
"What
were they doing?"
"They're
out there, drinking mate," I said as naturally as possible. "Didn't
you know? Weren't you the one who reads minds?"
"Me?
How do you know?" The hesitation lasted an instant, but apparently in free
zones, that's enough. A wall opened again like a diaphragm, click, clack, not
the same one, where there was now a window, but the one leading to the hallway,
but this time I could see it without difficulty. Rosa jumped like a panther and
grabbed the salesman's hand that held the weapon. But that wasn't all. There
was another click, clack, on the ceiling, and Salvo descended in slow motion,
as if sinking into a large volume of swan feathers. That slowness didn't seem
important, as the salesman was paralyzed. His face had frozen in an expression
of astonished terror, as if his brain was incapable of ordering anything else.
Salvo brandished a wide-bladed hunting knife, and used it to open the guy from
navel to neck.
"Watch
out, it's coming out!" Salvo announced.
From inside
the salesman came a monstrous creature, a saffron-colored spheroid, a being
unlike anything that lived on Earth. The monster had no limbs and clumsily fell
to the ground without making a sound. I didn't know whether to be surprised by
what I was seeing or by the way Rosa and Salvo handled the situation. It seemed
incredible to me that the creature was housed inside a human body and that,
perhaps, I don't know, I conjecture, it had taken possession of it to
manipulate it.
"Leave,
if you're impressionable," Salvo said. "I'm not lying if I tell you
that what follows is quite unpleasant." I was about to ask what he meant
by that, when Guevara re-entered through the same place he had used to leave.
He carried a black plastic bag and without any explanation poured its contents
over the creature. A white cascade fell over the spheroid, which began to
shrink, while it broke apart, turning gray and emitting a nauseating smell, the
same one I had perceived in the room full of furniture.
"Is it
salt?" I said, stupidly.
"It's
cocaine," Guevara said. "It's not a cheap war. Each of these bugs
costs us a fortune." The creature soon dwindled to a pile of ashes.
Salvo
crouched to remove the remains with the knife. Rosa took care of the salesman,
but I had to look away; it seemed as if the monster that had harbored inside
him had devoured his organs. To say the guy was dead was an understatement.
"So
this is the war," I said.
"One of
the wars," Salvo said.
"They
used me miserably," I protested. "They knew the guy would come
looking for me; they were baiting the trap."
"Baiting
traps, brewing mate," Guevara said. "What can you do? There are worse
things. Do you know what would happen if these things managed to
reproduce?"
"No,
but I can imagine. I see a legion of real estate agents advancing on the great
capitals."
"Are
you stupid?" Rosa said. When she got angry, her German accent became very
noticeable. For a moment I thought I might know who these three really were,
although history was never my strong suit. Perhaps they were just the ones from
the books, with full names and surnames and deeds.
"I'm
not one to give advice," Guevara said, "but I'm going to give you
one: don't buy the house if you don't want to live in the middle of a
battlefield." He gathered what remained of the creature using the plastic
bag in which he had brought the cocaine and wrapped it without touching it with
his hands. Then he took out a roll of packing tape and gave it several turns.
The whole package was not much bigger than a soccer ball.
"You
took away my desire." I tried to smile and couldn't.
"Then I
don't know if we'll see each other again," Salvo said, extending his hand
to me. I shook it. Rosa shook her head and was the first to leave the room.
Click, clack, you know.
"Mine
is a bit more complicated," Salvo said. "It only works when no one is
left." I didn't ask any more; surely the ceiling, converted into a large
mouth, would swallow him. I saw Guevara leave through the archway, as all the
other times, and a couple of pieces clicked: they could only meet in that
place, at that intersection point, and that's why they had needed me to attract
the salesman. I still felt like garbage.
I left the
house and resolved to follow Guevara's advice to the letter.
